Sunday, November 9, 2014

The Future

I'm just going to say it: The future is scary.

A lot has happened in the past couple of weeks and it makes me feel very uneasy about the future.
Sometimes I wish that I had someone tell me what I am supposed to do, like in one of the dystopian movies where we all have our place in the world and we do what we are told.  

I suppose in a sense the fact that that doesn't happen is very nice because then we have the choice to be who ever we want to be.  But half the struggle is finding out who that person is.  A doctor? An artist? A entrepreneur? There are so many things that you can be in this world.
I think one of the things that I struggle with is because there are so many options in life, I often find myself pulled in so many different directions with who I want to be.  I want to be a creator, I want to be successful, I want to make my family proud of me.  People often say "Oh you're only in college, you have plenty of time to find yourself there!!"  
Yeah, sure.
If anything, college has made me more confused.
They practically force us into deciding who we want to be at 18 and then throw us into the real world without a second glance.
It's absolutely terrifying.
I often find that I can't sleep or concentrate because I'm thinking about the unknown of the future.  
As of now, I'm just going through the motions.
Ugh. I don't know if this made any sense.
Has anyone else ever felt this/are feeling this too?

I know that everything will be okay but sometimes it just doesn't feel like it.
Ya feel? (haha.)

Take care, everyone.

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